Hello again you!
So last night I went to a party which got me thinking a lot
about alcohol in general, now I've always been the one that hasn't wanted to
drink ( loser tendencies again oops!). That doesn't mean I haven't experienced
the whole ' lets down all this vodka for no reason what so ever yay fun' stage
in my life, because trust me I have and I can say with absolute certainty is
wasn't even slightly fun. The first time I ever properly got drunk was when I
was 14, It's fair to say at this age in my life I was getting every rebellious
bone in my body out of my system and broadcasting it to the world. I have no
idea why but in the space of that year I must have thought I was one of the
cast members of skins; a spotty, naive, silly cast member at that. But any who,
so I was 14 and me and two of my best friends thought it would be a great idea
to create this amazing, drunk fueled day where we would embarrass ourselves
wake up the next morning not remembering a thing and feel pretty damn cool.
However, that's not quite how it happened. At the beginning of the day we all
got money from our parents, proclaiming we had no clothes and needed to go
shopping right away. What actually happened was we awkwardly stood outside a
local shop asking anybody who looked like they had a relaxed enough attitude to
buy us alcohol. Obviously at this age we knew barely anything about alcohol so
we picked the strongest substance we could afford; vodka was our weapon of
choice * ha ha*. We then drank the vodka in various amounts throughout the day;
I remember being sat on a bus, not properly being able to see each other
swigging vodka from a energy drink bottle and finding the experience so
ridiculously funny ( it's an incredibly classy image isn't it). I was 14 and
naive!! At this stage in mine and my friends life, we decided to hang around
with lads from 3 school years above us. We were basically losers and I guess
having older friends gave us some silly feeling of self righteousness, when
really we were all socially awkward and insecure little teenagers.
Later on in the evening we met up with around 5 of the older
lads and a couple of other girls from our year in school, in which we all drank
copious amounts of alcohol on a field in the middle of nowhere. If I remember
correctly there was a extremely drunk lad there who was hitting me with a huge
stick he found all night; he also bloody rugby tackled me at one point( I have
no idea what he was on). To make a long story short, our parents were ringing
us all night,which we evidently ignored. They then found us in a field with mud
all of other us being barely able to walk and took us home. The next couple of
hours then involved me violently vomiting, crying and proclaiming that It
wasn't my fault.
As I got older and realized who I was I began to realize
just how stupid drinking alcohol is( well in my opinion anyway!). The only
reason I drank in the first place was because, I was so insecure, I had no idea
who I was and the thought of being myself was a scary thing. Especially in high
school, I mean come on I may as well had been in a battle royale type scenario
every day of the week. Teenagers are mean, like really mean and if you dared to
be different you may as well have " taunt me" tattooed on your
forehead. So basically, I only ever drank because I didn't know myself well
enough to not give in to peer pressure. Which I find so ironic now as only 3
years later I feel that I never really give in to peer pressure; I don't enjoy
drinking alcohol so I'm not going to do it, I feel horribly guilty eating
animals so I'm a vegetarian.
Reasons why I don't want to drink alcohol( My opinions
please don't kill me!!) :
- It's damaging to your body: I understand that you can
drink alcohol sensibly but lets be honest if you compared what most people
drink, especially teenagers to the drinking guidelines it is quite ridiculous.
You're paying money to shorten your life span and make you feel shitty the next
morning. Just drink a fruit shoot or something * ha ha yum*. You can still go
to a party without having to drink alcohol and if you can't then you must not
have a personality if you require alcohol to have a conversation or be even
mildly entertaining.
- People change when
they're drunk: I don't really enjoy being around people when they're drunk as
they change and not for the better either! Most parties I have been to someone
has kicked off or made a rude comment and it's like " shut up jesus
christ".
- Maybe I've just a really neurotic, awkward person but I
don't really enjoy party situations, I've tried to I really have but all i'm
thinking whilst I'm there is " I can't wait to get home". I
personally enjoy more one of one situations because at parties everyone is
trying to be the center of attention and I don't know I've just never really enjoyed,
I would much rather be at home watching a awesome 90's film.
I should probably stop ranting now. I don't have a problem
with anyone else drinking but sometimes the fact I don't like this sort of
stuff annoys me. I mean I really should like these sorts of things, when I got
to university I'm just going to make it harder for me to make new friends. I
will be the one that doesn't drink but hey ho. I'm just curious as to why
people drink so often, I do get it in a sense it's an escape but surely that
can't just be it???
:)
AVOIRRRRRRRRR xxx
