Well hello there you lovely person, you!
I haven't wrote anything on this blog in what feels like forever. Excuse me, that was a particularly teenage sentence wasn't it with the use of ' like', us young-uns do have a habit of placing like in front of everything and using hyperbole - it's not actually been forever has it. Anyway, I'm ranting and analyzing myself, that's what revising for an A level English literature and language exam can do to you. So, I haven't wrote on here for a long time because well, I didn't feel like I had anything interesting to say. I didn't feel like ' hey, just ate a kinder egg and drank some fruit juice today' would make an interesting read. Also, full frontal exposition here for ya but this isn't going to be interesting either it's just going to lots of ranty rants from an 18 year old ( yes, I know the title of this blog states 17 but that's how long its been, yay legal not that that holds any weight as I'm boring and don't drink or do exciting cool colourful drugs, but anyway I'm ranting). ANYWAYYYY - I will try not to drive down a long, windy road with my thoughts because I'm annoying myself just listening to my head voice.
So, In a couple of weeks I will start my FINAL A level exams before I hopefully go of to that forbidden next stage of my life called university. I'm currently very stressed because my future kind of lies in the balance of how well I do so you know, lots of pressure and stuff. I don't really know if anyone is going to read this or if any kind of life form out there does stumble upon this what age bracket they will fall into, but maybe just maybe you may be able to relate.
Life is scary. I'm quite a melodramatic person, but it really is. We have been given a life and we have this weight on us, no matter how old we are, where we come from and the type of person we are, we do. This weight isn't physical but it sure feels it, this weight tells us that we must achieve or at least do something significant with our life so we're always striving for more which is great, it makes us better people of course. However, we should never feel like we're nothing just because of this. It doesn't matter if you're not the best, the prettiest, the wealthiest because all that matters is that you're happy. Don't destroy yourself because you feel you're not good enough. What I am saying is very typical and has already been said a million times, but you deserve to be happy.
I find it very hard to like myself, but no where near as much as I used to do. I used to really hate myself, infact I found it difficult to look in the mirror but you should tell yourself that as long as you're kind it doesn't matter about all them other things. Also surround yourself in people that make you happy. It took me a long time to realize who were my real friends and who wasn't because unfortunately there are people out there that will you use you for their own personal gain, but when you find those people that genuinely care about you, you will be happy.
Anywho, that wasn't even the point of this blog I've ranted of on one again. It's getting sunny and I'm a pale little 18 year old who burns whenever she's in the sun and today I was in work. I had been in the sun all the day the day before and a customer made a huge deal about how pale I was and how I need to catch a tan, so the moral of the story is I'm going to be pale, freckly and burnt all summer and people are going to laugh because I'm a ghost. I really don't know where this is going now. If you're revising for exams - good luck and all.
Also, please leave suggestions with topics for me to write about because as you can see I'm clearly struggling for ideas. Much love,
Sarah
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